love gives us a fairytale

We can never be certain where life takes us. But we can be certain that life takes us somewhere. Because I think that things are certain, we just don't know for certain what they are.

I've been saying this a lot lately, actually. But I just wanted to put it down here anyway.

I am now waiting for my mother to leave home so I can print out the lousy HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY poster I made on PowerPoint then stick it on our front door. Haha. My parents have known each other for 3 decades, and today, married for 2. It's pretty amazing. I wonder how it was like for them when they first met. Did they know it was 'true love'? The sort where you share parts of yourself, those parts which you hold so close to your heart that even you may not have realised are there. The sort where you can quarrel and have major disagreements over many things, major or minor issues, then still forgive and accept and continue to love. The sort where, 30 years later, you're still trying and are happy to try.

I don't know if I'll ever find this 'true love'. What we might think is for certain, for sure, or absolute may actually not be that way at all. That is for sure, though, haha. But I know that I have so much love to share. It just has to be something both my heart and mind can agree on, I think. After all, any relationship is a commitment that I make not only to myself.

Life, although I have only lived it so far, has taken me through many interesting experiences, some good and some bad and some big and some small, but all ultimately teaching me something. And, yes it's true, you actually find friends, even amongst those whom you least expected to, who truly understand. But whatever it is, I think we have to understand and accept ourselves by figuring out what we like, or dont, and what we are good at, or not.

So, it seems like I'm going to fail driving test again this May. Haha but drove in the rain for the first time today. Luckily I didn't vroom zoom boom! It's time to print stuff before mother comes back from sending sister to piano lesson.

i didnt want us to burn out.

I consumed Green Tea Latte on Thursday :( I even have photographic evidence. But I'm still going strong on eggs. (Y) Maybe I'll find something else. Or go along with the 'give up LAWR for Lent' trend. I think I'm on that path, actually!

i've been looking at super pretty flowers all night since coming back from SOA- thank god for andrew!!!! he makes me feel like i have a true friend in this ridiculous place. anyway so i've been looking at flowers, and looking at party planning because. wow, parties are so pretty. anyway AH I LOVE THESE FLOWER BOUQUETS







from everywhere. sorry for the lack of credits. anyway i want to try to do something like the last one for my mummy for her birthday! (the first two are the same- they are just so gorgeous i couldn't help but post it twice) but using blue flowers and more white instead of yellow (: tightly compressed flowers in a bunch and tied up with ribbon. MHMM so pretty :D i'm also thinking about decorating my room next year in the apartment -that as of now has not been found yet and whose location (i.e. if it will even be in berkeley) has not been ascertained yet.
i'm going to look at more typography and think about buying some calligraphy pens and looking into letterpress classes over the summer. and be happy. i have no reason to be constantly upset and disappointed and sad- god really has been extraordinarily good. and there is so much beauty and creativity in the world.
sigh okay i just emailed a bunch of people to see if i can help tutor high school kids /homeless kids in writing. i think actually interacting with people less fortunate than i am will pull me out of my selfpitying, annoying funk and MAKE me realise how seriously fortunate and blessed i am beyond measure. even with all this annoying little worries and crazy stresses and insane fear all the time, it pales in comparison to not even having a home or not even knowing how to read.

i am blessed and god is awesome and the world is good.
stop telling yourself otherwise.
p/s if you've had a good week, please come tell me about it because apparently the rest of the world's week has sucked majorly too. and the world has to have some kind of karmic balance right like if i'm sad someone else out there has to be happy the same amt right?? says the laws of physics?? right???????

We're gearing up for a couple of major releases over the next few weeks, so there's not much in the way of bug fixes or product announcements this week (other than our spiffed up news template). We promise to have exciting "real news" for you very soon! In the meantime, Frank is so grateful that he can count on you that he'd like you to count on him too! To celebrate his freedom from ice-skating (both viewing and participating), his good friend, Sheldon, suggested we honor the Figure 8! If at least two elements of your birthday (month + day; day + year; month + day + year; etc.) add up to 8, Frank'll glide you over a pair of skates. In other words, if you were born on May 3rd (5+3), bazinga! If you were born on April Fools, 1992 (4+1+1+9+9+2=26; 2+6=8), double bazinga!! Creative calculations are most welcome. Let the math festivities begin!
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